Why I'm going to like this book
Because I've avoided John Green for a long time...
since everybody seems to be talking about him...
and the thing with authors or books that everyone's talking about...
is that sometimes you want to avoid them...
after all, if a LOT of people like them...
that means they appeal to the masses...
which means that it appeals to a pedestrian taste...
but you don't want to be associated with anything pedestrian...
because you're different, damn it, and you're smart...
you think...
smarter than the hoi polloi...
so you avoid the book/author...
until you can't because...
you're actually curious...
and you end up buying the book...
but at the back of your mind, you think, "There must be something wrong with this book...
and I'm going to find it. And call it out for everyone to see...
or agree with a really smart detractor...
because we smart folk need to stick together...
and distinguish ourselves from the hoi polloi who like this book/author"...
and then it hits you...
you're being an ass again...
and you realize that you've already pre-judged a book...
not based on its merits nor the author's merits...
but because you want a certain status...
which might be entirely in your head...
and that sucks...
because whether you like it or not...
it takes a lot out of the enjoyment in reading...
and maybe you're not as smart as you think you are...
otherwise why would you let other people's voices in your head...
while you're reading a book?...
and maybe to many people, YOU are the hoi polloi...
and what the fuck does it matter anyway...
because when you start to read...
you want it to be just between you and the book...
which doesn't really care about your idea of self-worth.
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